Be Still

ESV Philippians 4:6-7 do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

ESV Isaiah 41:8-10 But you, Israel, my servant, Jacob, whom I have chosen, the offspring of Abraham, my friend; you whom I took from the ends of the earth, and called from its farthest corners, saying to you, "You are my servant, I have chosen you and not cast you off"; fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

Today I was anxious. I was fearful.

I was in tears.

One of my sweet children went to a birthday party with a friend today. I can only claim to know the family a little. Actually, I only know the mom and kids, but I've always enjoyed their company and had no reason to fear when sending my son with them to an afternoon of fun.

Until he was over 2 hours late coming home.

I realized in those moments that I really knew very little about these people who had my most precious cargo in their care. Although I tried calling their cell phone, there was no answer and no response to my message.

As fear began to creep in and worry began to choke me, I prayed. But I was so overcome with the "what ifs" that I was unable to experience the peace that Philippians promises.

Josh and I began calling the place where our beloved son was supposed to be partying - with a plan to call the police next and check on any accidents.

But thankfully, as we were beginning these terrifying phone calls, their van crept into our driveway. And I sobbed. Thankful that my son was unscathed and home safe and sound. Shamed that I had not put more trust in the only One who can truly be with my children every moment of the day and night.

Matthew 6 begs the question: Who by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life?

If anything, I think I took a few hours off my lifespan tonight! And as I sit trying to calm down, my body is reacting to the stress. The babe within feels unsettled, my nerves are shot and I just want to have a good cry. Frankly, I don't know how those who worry much are able to live a productive life!

As I work to calm down, I am listening to one of my well-loved CDs. Kari Jobe has a beautiful song called "Be Still". It is ministering to me in a way that nothing else has in the midst of this turmoil.

He is here for the broken and life to the one who is undone.
He is peace to the wounded and hope for the helpless one.
He is here.
Be still, my soul, be still.
When the waves rise against me and the wind tries to draw me away
I will stand on the mountain and safe in Your arms, I will sing ...
Be still, my soul, be still.

Be still, my soul. And rest on the God who sees and hears all, who can carry even the heaviest burden. Be still.